Monday, August 24, 2009 1:49 PM
Sorry I have not been updating my blog for quite some times because of my laziness. T
oday I am back to blog. These few days I am having insomnia, I can't get to sleep. My mind is th
inking about life, relationship and studies.
Let talk about life.My mind has been thinking what I really want in my life. What is my future? What will I be doing in 10 years time? What lifestyle I want to achieve? Be its luxury lifestyle or simple lifestyle. Actually who don't wish to have luxury lifestyle. But it is whether how you go to achieve it.
RelationshipRealtionship is the most trouble stuff as I do not know what I am really want in a BF. Currently I have been dating a guy for 4 months but I am getting sick of it. Not because he is not good or have attitude problem. Maybe I am not ready for a relationship yet as I always get bored with my BF for just three months time. Or maybe I have not met my Mr Right yet or so. Actually my Bf treat me very good, always care and concern for me first, think of me first and I think he loves me more than I do. I know I am very bad but I don't have a relationship feeling. It look more like a best friend. I always will be attracted to another person easily as maybe I am not ready for relationship or maybe I still want to play. Don't want any resposibility and commitment. It is still better to have fling for me as no commitment. I am very confused with myself. Recently I have met a guy, I feel comfortable to talk to him face to face. I feel happy when talking to him. Maybe because no commitment and you can talk as you like. Should I break off with my current BF and remain as friend or shouldn't I? He treated me very good, that why I don't wish to waste his time on such a person like me. He deserve a better person. Am I just using him to forget about my ex? I am really confused. He has not done anything wrong but the more it drag, it will be more difficult to solve. So break or don't break? Can give me any comment?
StudiesI have always think of further study but because of money issue. As i wish to totally change a new course. I don't wish to study IT as accounting is my passion. A foolish me, I should choose accounting in my poly life and I can get into local UNI. Because local UNI won't let people to change course that not related to our diploma. So now I got to study private. I plan to stuY ACCA but need at least 30K. Currently, I am still looking for job but I have been hunting for half a year. Or just that I am not ready for work society. Should i go for study loan to continue with my studies first or should I find a job to earn money for studies? I have been envy my friend who are still studying. I love study than working. Working life is sucks. How I wish I got the money to study. Can give me any suggestion whether should I go for study loan or shouldn't I?