Silly Girl

We need Friends

2011-04-19T21:25:00.003+08:00

Your Heart is your Love,

Your love is your Family,

Your family is your Future,

Your future is your Destiny,

Your destiny is your Ambition,

Your ambition is your Aspiration,

Your aspiration is your Motivation,

Your motivation is your Belief,

Your belief is your Peace,

Your peace is your Target,

Your target is your Friends,

Life is no fun without FRIENDS

Recovering of dead blog

2011-04-19T21:14:00.001+08:00

I can't find what is my email that use to sign into my blogspot. Have a difficult time in finding. Finally i found it, think is due to my super duper long time didn't log in to my blog. Sorry about stop updating my blog. Now I'm back to blog. =)

Human creatures

2009-09-26T18:10:00.002+08:00

Hello reader, cureently I am not in the mood of updating my 21st Birthday celebration entry. I will update when I'm in the mood. Sorry about it.

Let talk about human creatures. Actually human creatures are very unique and special. Why I said so? Because male creatures and female creatures are two difference creatures. Fore example. 7 out of 10 female, let their mind has the 80% controllability of their feeling and 20% controllability for their heart. While male will be in the opposite way. But frankly speaking, be it a female or a male. Please let your mind has the 80% controllability and heart has 20% controllability. If you always follow your heart fully, you will regret in the future. So people out there. Please make way for your mind to think properly what you really want, what you want the outcome to be. Not avoiding every single problem and say let heart decide everything. In the end, your soul will be laughing at you. So people please make some way for your mind to think.

I will talk more about this when I am back home. I running out of time. Actually I am meeting my poly friends at 6pm but I'm still here updating blog like no people business. Ok talk about it again when I am free. Ok enjoy your weekends people. Bye. =)

Thoughts...

2009-09-16T02:16:00.002+08:00

Being a Human is so troublesome, tiring, foolish at times and more. Or I should be put it as I being a human instead. But this is not important whether is me or others as some people will have the same thought as me. Most importantly is why my thoughts are always so messy and this only will make me feel tired to be myself only. But it is out of my control as I told myself not to think and get deep into it, however the other side my mind already thinking deep in. Maybe I like to think too much and in addition I am a deep thinker. So most of the time, I can't let my mind stop thinking. How I wish that I can stop thinking. Am I too emotional or just think of others first. Actually I don't really understand myself well enough, so how can others understand me. Actually I am here just to type out my thought that I wish to say out but I do not dare to say out in front of others.

Huixin......
Be selfish to yourselves and not others, else people will take advantage of your unselfishness.
Be kind to yourselves and not others, else people will take advantage of your kindness.
Care for yourselves more than care for others.
Love yourselves more than love others.
Think for youselves first before thinking for others.
Understand yourselves first before understand others.
Let your mind rest and don't think so much.
Take a break for a further journey.

Think that I should just let my mind rest and move on life day by day happily as you won't know what will happen next. So just let nature take its course. Maybe this will make myself more fruitful. Actually I still can't be selfish to myself, I do not know why. Maybe it is just my character. I always think of others before me. Why am I so kind, stupid and foolish? Don't even know how to be selfish to myself. Sighs....Think I am really a loser of being myself. Nevermind as long as others are happy, I am always happy. =)

Stay tune for my 21st Birthday Celebration!!!

KBOX Outing with STC_Sisters

2009-09-07T17:37:00.004+08:00

5th September, 2009

Today woke up at 9.30am to prepare to meet my working colleagues for kbox session at K plaza. Supposingly meeting them 10.40 in AMK Control station but I'm late so I ask them go off first. And I will meet them at there. Suprisingly, they and me reached at the same time as I think they have walked a big round to reach there. Nvm let start the singing session. Hope to have this kind of gathering again. But too bad Wendy can't make it. Next gathering, let plan to go Wendy's house for steamboat. Let photo do the talking.

七公主. This name is given by people in Singapore Turf Club.

Sisters Forever. Hope we will have more gathering ahead. =)

Me & Eileen

Me & Angel

Bel & Me

Carel & Me

Emilyn & Me

Bel & Angel. Both of them are real-blood sisters. Both are pretty right?

Arielle & Arianne. Wow both of them are my kids. LOL I can't give birth to them as the elder is already 7 years old. These two are Eileen's kids. Both of them are so cute.

Me & Arielle

Arianne & Me

Arielle, Eileen youngest kid. Cute right? Love her so much.

Arianne, Eileen elder kid. Really know how to pose during photo-taking.

Wow I really love kid a lot. They are so cute. Actually both of them are not very familiar with me in the first place. But after awhile, both of them come and stick with me. They are really cute.

Ok let end a photo of 七公主

Best Sisters Forever!

Looking forwards for another gathering. See you all soon. Loves you all. =)

Siew Kae's 21st Birthday Celebration

2009-09-07T16:41:00.002+08:00

1st September, 2009

Today went Jurong Point to take Secondary School Textbook and 10 years series from my poly friend. After that went popular with mong hong and kok kian to buy Mathematics 5 years series for ah ger. Ah ger is my tution student. After that meet liang yao in JP then go down Bugis together to meet siew kae as liang yao school is near Boon Lay. That's why we meet then go down together, like that at least got accompany during the journey. Thought we will be quite late but in the end we reach around 6.05pm. Everyone haven't reach except siew kae and kenneth. So liang yao and me wait for Yvonne and Julien in the Bugis Control Station then after that went meet siew kae and kenneth. Joven came later to meet us outside BHG. After that we walk to one Hotel beside iluma as I forget the Hotel name already. We went have vegetarian dinner as Siew kae don't wish to eat meat on her birthday. But I'm alright with it as the foods are quite delicious. Ok let photo do the talking.

Birthday Girl, Siew Kae. The photo cute right? LOL.

Ok let start the cutting cake session.

Happy Birthday Siew Kae. The Loving couple. =)

Blackforest Cake

Blowing candle

Cutting cake

Think kenneth is hungry. See the expression he gave. LOL

Force to wear ribbon. LOL

Keep looking at the phone.

Keep thinking of thing. Is there so many thing to think. LOL

Julien & Siew Kae

Me & Siew Kae

Joven & Siew Kae

Yvonne & Siew Kae

Liang Yao & Siew Kae

Hope we are friend forever. =)

Haha let start the funny part that Siew Kae, Julien and me did in the lavatory.

The expression Julien gave when having stomachache.

The expression Siew Kae gave when having stomachace.

That me having a silly expression. Don't know is stomachache or smiling. LOL

Hope we three are friends forever! =)

Let end our lavatory photo series with a nice photo.

Ok let end the celebration with a nice photo.

Happy Birthday Siew kae. Hope you have enjoyed your birthday today. =)

Yvonne's 21st Birthday Celebration

2009-09-07T16:10:00.004+08:00

Sorry that I didn't update my blog regularly. Now I shall update all the posts. Let start with Yvonne's 21st Birthday Celebration. Follow up is Siew Kae's 21st Birthday Celebration. Lastly will be my outing with STC sisters.

17th August, 2009

Today I meet Julien, Yvonne, Joven and Siew Kae in ION Orchard to help Yvonne celebrate her 21st Birthday. Actually we not sure where shall we go to have our dinner. Actually we plan to go Xin Wang Cafe but in the end we didn't. So we went to another chinese restaurant but I forget the restaurant name. If I'm not wrong, the restaurant is located in Level 3. Let the photo do the talking.

This is Yvonne, she is the birthday girl for today. Yvonne hope you enjoy your birthday celebration.

Joven

SiewKae

Julien

Me

This is the foods that we have ordered.

Friends forever.

After the dinner, we went back home as Yvonne and Julien tomorrow still have school while Siew Kae got work. Yvonne hope you have enjoyed your Birthday Celebration. Sorry for the late present. Hope to see you all soon. =)

Relationship is like a cycle

2009-09-01T12:33:00.002+08:00

EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse/partner. You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies (unconventional behavior/habit).

Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called 'falling' in love. Because it's happening TO YOU.

People in love sometimes say, 'I was swept off my feet.' Think about the imagery of that __expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU.

Falling in love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria (excitement) of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when marriages breakdown. People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances.

But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it. I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could.

And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this):

THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't 'find' LASTING love. You have to 'make' it day in and day out. That's why we have the __expression 'the labor of love.' Because it takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it takes WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work.

Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.

Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger. It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable. you can 'make' love.

Love in marriage is indeed a 'decision'. Not just a feeling. This is a meaning explanation of relationship is like a cycle. So people out there, if you are facing relationship problem, think of what i wrote and reflect on it. And also remember this always:

'God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go.'

Life

2009-09-01T11:58:00.003+08:00

Life is short

Break the rules

forgive quickly

kiss passionately, love truly

laugh constantly

And never stop smiling

no matter how strange life is

Life is not always the party we expected to be

but as long as we are here, we should smile and be grateful.

Life is very precious as we wouldn't know what will happen next in our life. In this world, everyone will have ups and downs. We won't be so lucky all the times with pleasant news, there always have another side of life. So when people met downfalls, they are living back and forth. Thinking how come it will become like this and etc. But have you ever think of how am I going to do to turn the situation back to last time. So people please move on with our life and live our life heartily.

2009-08-24T13:49:00.000+08:00

Sorry I have not been updating my blog for quite some times because of my laziness. Today I am back to blog. These few days I am having insomnia, I can't get to sleep. My mind is thinking about life, relationship and studies.

Let talk about life.
My mind has been thinking what I really want in my life. What is my future? What will I be doing in 10 years time? What lifestyle I want to achieve? Be its luxury lifestyle or simple lifestyle. Actually who don't wish to have luxury lifestyle. But it is whether how you go to achieve it.

Relationship
Realtionship is the most trouble stuff as I do not know what I am really want in a BF. Currently I have been dating a guy for 4 months but I am getting sick of it. Not because he is not good or have attitude problem. Maybe I am not ready for a relationship yet as I always get bored with my BF for just three months time. Or maybe I have not met my Mr Right yet or so. Actually my Bf treat me very good, always care and concern for me first, think of me first and I think he loves me more than I do. I know I am very bad but I don't have a relationship feeling. It look more like a best friend. I always will be attracted to another person easily as maybe I am not ready for relationship or maybe I still want to play. Don't want any resposibility and commitment. It is still better to have fling for me as no commitment. I am very confused with myself. Recently I have met a guy, I feel comfortable to talk to him face to face. I feel happy when talking to him. Maybe because no commitment and you can talk as you like. Should I break off with my current BF and remain as friend or shouldn't I? He treated me very good, that why I don't wish to waste his time on such a person like me. He deserve a better person. Am I just using him to forget about my ex? I am really confused. He has not done anything wrong but the more it drag, it will be more difficult to solve. So break or don't break? Can give me any comment?

Studies
I have always think of further study but because of money issue. As i wish to totally change a new course. I don't wish to study IT as accounting is my passion. A foolish me, I should choose accounting in my poly life and I can get into local UNI. Because local UNI won't let people to change course that not related to our diploma. So now I got to study private. I plan to stuY ACCA but need at least 30K. Currently, I am still looking for job but I have been hunting for half a year. Or just that I am not ready for work society. Should i go for study loan to continue with my studies first or should I find a job to earn money for studies? I have been envy my friend who are still studying. I love study than working. Working life is sucks. How I wish I got the money to study. Can give me any suggestion whether should I go for study loan or shouldn't I?

Check out Wahjong at Viwawa!

2009-03-20T00:16:00.001+08:00

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Without a shadow

2009-02-02T00:42:00.002+08:00

Is easy to fall in love with a person but difficult to forget a person. I really hate myself. All my mind and heart are filled with HIM. I really love HIM a lot till I always weep a tear for him whenever I am alone. So I hate to stay at home alone as it will lead my mind to think of him. I know I got to wake up as he won’t be back to my side anymore. No matter how I wait and wait, he won’t be back to me again. His face is getting blurry and blurry till I can’t see him properly anymore.

There is no promise in the world. A promise is not meant to break. But he broke all the promises that he made to me.

He promises to be my shadow that will follow behind me all the time but he breaks it.
He promises me that he won’t leave me for three times but he breaks it.
He promises me that will love me forever but he breaks it.

I AM REALLY REALLY VERY UPSET AND DEPRESSION. I AM GOING CRAZY. I WISH I CAN SLEEP FOREVER AND I WON’T THINK SO MUCH.

Outing with Hua Hua

2009-01-12T01:36:00.004+08:00

Friday Night slept at 5am in the morning due to my nephew keep crying non-stop. Sleep till 11.30am then woke up because i meeting Shuhua 12.30pm. As usual, I'm late so around 2pm then i meet up with her. Sorry girl that I let you waited for so long. After i met up with her, we went to buy Milk Tea and continue our shopping. We shop around then in the end we both bought the same bag. I ask her to buy the same bag as me. Yes she really did. Love you girl. Both of us born on same day, same month and same year. Same attitude, same characteristic and etc.

Hua Hua and Xin Xin

And these are the things i bought on Saturday. Actually I said I won't buy thing because I am working on CNY first and second days. So i don't need to buy CNY clothes. But in the end i bought dress, bag, belt and eye lashes. Actually all these stuffs I bought it for casual like before. I can buy these at anytime, just that so happen I meeting Hua Hua for shopping then I saw the things I want. So just buy it.

Stuffs I bought.

Then around 5.30pm, we went off because she meeting her friends and I meeting my friends. So coincidence that she going to celebrate her friend's birthday and I also going to celebrate my friend's birthday. So I took bus to AMK hub to meet my friend. Meet up with Julien first then around 7 plus, Zheng yih, Li min and wee min came. While waiting for Janet, we decide what we want to eat. Actually want to eat sumo house but got a lot of people. So in the end we went pizza hut. The foods are so nice. Yummy Yummy!! Then Janet came around 8. Then after eating, we went one of the void deck to cut cake. Happy birthday wee min. Then after that, Li min and Janet went off first. Then left me, julien, zheng yih and wee min. we not sure what to do then in the end they thought of playing Mj at wee min's house. So we went cheers to buy tidbits and drinks. Then took cab to his house to play MJ. We from 12.30 play till 5 because I keep win. In the end i won 16 bucks. =) Then wee min and zheng yih walk us home as we stay quite near. Home sweet home. =)

Can't forget about him

2009-01-11T20:40:00.005+08:00

IS EASY TO SAY "LET GO"
BUT IT IS DIFFICULT TO DO IT!

I CHOOSE TO LET GO
AND GIVE UP
BUT I STILL CAN'T FORGET ABOUT
HIM!

I PROMISE THAT I'LL BE
STRONG
NOW I CAN'T BE STRONG ANYMORE.
WHENEVER I THINK BACK
I WILL CRY
HOW I WISH HE'S BY MY SIDE!
I NEED HIM!

LIFE'S MEANINGLESS WITHOUT
HIM!

WITHOUT HIM
I CAN'T SMILE LIKE BEFORE
WITH HIM AROUND
I SMILE WIDELY

WITHOUT HIM
I CRY TO SLEEP EVERY NIGHT
WITH HIM AROUND
I LAUGH TO SLEEP

WITHOUT HIM
I ALWAYS IN THE LOW MOOD
WITH HIM AROUND
I ALWAYS IN THE GOOD MOOD

I REALLY MISS HIM A LOT A LOT
I WANT HIM BACK TO MY SIDE
BUT IT'S IMPOSSIBLE ANYMORE

I GOT TO ALWAYS PRETEND STRONG
IN FRONT OF OTHERS
WHO KNOW I'M FRAGILE IN HEART
MY HEART IS BLEEDING
AND CRYING ALL DAY NIGHT

I REALLY NEED HIM!!!!!!!
I LOVE HIM A LOT A LOT!!!!

2009-01-03T10:36:00.003+08:00

Song title: 爱我的人和我爱的人 Singer: 游鸿明

盼不到我爱的人
我知道我愿意再等
疼不了爱我的人
片刻柔情它骗不了人
我不是无情的人
却将你伤的最深
我不忍我不能
别再认真
忘了我的人
离不开我爱的人
我知道爱需要缘分
放不下爱我的人
因为了解他多么认真
为什么最真的心
碰不到最好的人
我不问我不能
拥在怀中
直到他变冷
爱我的人为我痴心不悔
我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对
谁对谁不必虚伪
爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪
为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围
music

盼不到我爱的人
我知道我愿意再等
疼不了爱我的人
片刻柔情它骗不了人
我不是无情的人
却将你伤的最深
我不忍我不能
别再认真
忘了我的人
爱我的人为我痴心不悔
我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对
谁对谁不必虚伪
爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪
为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围
爱我的人为我痴心不悔
我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对
谁对谁不必虚伪
爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪
为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围

Disconsolate day

2009-01-02T00:59:00.001+08:00

Today is a very disconsolate day because I knew a big secret. I think everyone will want to know is about what. Today a girl told me do I know the guy I used to love before who can say is my latest ex but not much people know about has patch back with his ex-girlfriend. At that moment I was shocked as I didn’t know about it. So I was like crying while talking to that girl who told me about this big secret. Then after that I calm down and I talk to the guy on phone then I was so proud about myself. I didn’t weep a tear but it doesn’t mean I am strong. Maybe I was too heartbroken till I can’t cry. Then both of us said meet up at 11 to talk about it. So while waiting, I called back the girl and talk. I never weep a tear too. I still can say should I just forgive him and give the blessing to him and his ex-girlfriend. Then the girl said it will depend on me. So I make the decision to let go and give the blessing to them. I rather I am the one that upset and suffer than three people suffer. At the first place, I did ask him not to meet his ex and we start afresh but I think through. No point keeps a person by your side when his heart is with his ex. So I rather give up of him because I want him to be happy. As long as he is happy, I will be happy. He asked me can I forgive him and be friend again. I told him I accept his apology and treat him as friend. I know everyone will think I am stupid and silly. Why I want to forgive him and be friend with him again. as I told everyone as long as he is happy, I will be happy. I want my friends that around me are happy and I will be happy. I may look strong but I am fragile in heart. But who care? Nobody knows about it as I didn’t express it out. I know I am strong and independence enough to solve the problem. I am crying right now because there are too many good memories between me and him which I will remember forever. Thank for everything. I think I have really grown up as if last time, I will be like drinking to numb myself. But now I learn to cry out and forgive others. Life is meaningless if keep hating one person and can’t forget about it. So I rather to forgive and forget, as life will be more meaningful and I will be happier. So now I am learning to forgive and forget about it. It will remain good memories for me and him. People learn to forgive and forget as like that life will be happier. Although I still very upset and heartbroken, I know my friends will be around me to support my decision and care for me. Hopefully everyone respect my decision. I choose to end my relationship with this guy and give my blessing to him and his ex. I will forgive him and be good friend with him. So people please respect it. Thanks for people who care for me. I really appreciate a lot. Thanks friends.

2008-12-24T01:59:00.003+08:00

Today wake up at 10 because meeting my FYP groupmates. We going Sim Lim Square to find GSM modem but can't find. Then we called teacher to ask about it. the teacher ask us to ask the distributor on net. He knows the answer but he didn't ven tell us about it. Damn it!! So angry about the teacher. Then after that, we went to eat lunch but i didn't eat because i don't feel hungry. After lunch, take cab to kok kian's house to take the GSM Modem as yong jiang say he wants to try out at home. Before that, we went Northpoint as I want to buy new phone but they don't have the model. At that moment, I was darned sad about it. I don't want to give up, so I went to Toa Payoh the Singtel retail shop where i bought my previous phone. Then i found it. My precious new phone, Samsung F480. Love it so much!

Samsung F480

After that went back home, take a short nap as I was too tired. Now I am free so blog about today. Bye bye and take care my reader.

2008-12-11T15:43:00.000+08:00

Just finish editing my blog skins, so decide to blog since I have been not blogging for quite a long time. School is so tedious because I always got to wake up early in the morning and I can’t get sufficient of sleep. Currently, I can sleep till late morning as I am having my term-break holiday. I am so elated because I do not have to wake up so early, can go shopping, go work and meet up with friends. Staying at home is so boring, I want to go out shopping but none of my friends are free to go out. So later I might be going out myself to get contact lens and cosmetic stuffs. Update soon. Take care.

Reborn after MIA

2008-11-03T01:12:00.000+08:00

Hi reader I am back to blog again. Actually if I got things to bawl out but no people to turn to, eventually I will turn to my blog. I can write whatever things as I wish in my blog. Although blog don’t give me any comment about my feeling or thought, it is still a good listener that always by your side no matter what had happened.

Be frank I don’t really understand myself well enough. As I don’t know whether I am a strong girl that can overcome every single problem or I just a fragile girl that will easily been turn away by problem. Sometime I really loath my way of handling stuffs such as my studies, life and relationship. Everyone always think that I am a strong girl that can overcome everything but actually I am fragile in heart. For instance, like a beautiful glass that display on the shell in the shopping mall. It looks beautiful and strong but no people know that actually that glass is very fragile. I am just like the glass that is fragile, so please handle with care.

Obsession always never turn out to be the outcome I wanted it to be, eventually it become drifted apart. Am I that difficult to please? I am just an ordinary person that needs people to care and pamper me. I don’t request anything like luxury stuff and etc.

Already start school for 4 weeks and currently busy with FYP. So sickening of FYP as there are many things are incomplete. Sometime I ask myself that “Why am I a perfectionist who loves everything to be perfect?” Actually perfectionist is a very exhausting role to be as no one is perfect in the world. I told myself many times, just relax and you won’t regret if you have already put in the effort. Hopefully I really can make it. Update more next time. Is time to go sleep already because later I got to wake up at 6 to prepare to go school. Byebye. Good Nights. =)

Happy Birthday

2008-09-12T14:45:00.004+08:00

Wednesday wake up darned early to go Malaysia with my family they all. The purpose of going Malaysia is to attending my brother wedding dinner which is organized in Malaysia. However the actual wedding is on this coming Sunday. Wednesday night came back to Singapore at around 12am plus. After reached home, faster go bath and remove make up and crawl to the bed and sleep as I was very tired. Thursday wake up around 9.30am to prepare go to school for FYP briefing. Everyday got to wake up early, cannot have sufficient sleep. Everyday feeling tired and feel like sleeping. After briefing, went Far East Plaza to shop for awhile as I meeting Yi Hui they all at 5.30pm but in the end I meet them at 6.30pm instead. Went Far East plaza bought all these things.

Bought this jacket from Buyaway shop for 30 bucks, I know Bugis is selling cheaper, but is alright.

Bought this clothes and bra strap from Missy Gin shop and the total is 40 plus.

Reached Bugis around 6.30, then Li ping came to fetch me to Tian Tian steamboat as I don’t know how to walk to there. Then we chit chat and eat till 9pm, will update the photo again. I was so touched because Yi Hui they all bought a cake for me and this is the present they gave to me.

Escada perfume which is Yi Hui, Li Ping and Julien bought for me:

Then Shu Ling bought this fasio eye essence for me:

After that, Yi Hui, Julien, Li Ping and I went MOS but we went home prepare then go MOS. Play till 4 plus then home sweet home.

Modernize blog

2008-09-03T00:35:00.005+08:00

30 August, 2008

Today went The Cathay to watch wall.e movie with Yi Hui. The show is quite hilarious and cute, so you got to watch this movie. Anyway I should be meeting Yi Hui at 10 plus but I reach around 11pm. After the movie, actually we want to go MOS one but Yi Hui got morning flight tomorrow so in the end we went home instead. But is fun to hang around with my les partner and love her so much. Though you are so busy, we still got to meet up for a catch up. After went home, use computer for awhile then went to sleep already.

Me and Yi Hui

1 September, 2008

Today went back school for FYP briefing and I was late by 15 minutes because is a morning briefing and yesterday I slept at 4am so can’t wake up. Think I really got to change my habit away by not sleeping late if not when school start I will always late. The briefing last quite short, around 11 plus finish the briefing already. Then after that meet up with Daphne and Albert, and we went Marine Square the Sakae Sushi for youth buffet and each person is around 30 plus as we got order other foods but I think is worthwhile. And I was so touch, Daphne and Albert bought a Crumpler bag for me. Thanks my friends for buying such a expensive advance birthday present for me.

This is the bag they bought for me:

Then after the buffet, we went town to walk around as Marine Square got nothing to shop. We reached town around 6 plus to 7 and we went Far East Plaza shop and I bought these two set of clothes which I want to buy this kind of clothes long time ago. The price is quite cheap as outside it sold around 40 to 60 bucks but I bought it for 28 buck each set.

These are the two set of clothes I bought:

After that, went to my friend shop Missy Gin to find her then we talk a lot of craps. Then I notice Gin selling a book and the title wrote “What man knows about woman?” and I think quite interesting. So I took the book and I flip it and I was stun as the book is a plain notebook. After awhile and I figure out the answer is Man knows nothing about woman. Isn’t it interesting? Think I will go buy this notebook from her. Around 10, Daphne went off as tomorrow she still got to work, and then we send her to her bus stop. After Daphne went off, Albert and I went Starbucks for a drink. Then around 11 plus, we catch the last train and home sweet home.

2 September, 2008

Today wake up at 1pm then went to Lavender to take my new passport; there are so many collecting passports. After collecting my passport, then I went Ang Mo Kio to meet Julien for lunch. Today she went interview at my work place and she got the TSA job while my other friend Cristal got the CSA job that I am currently working. After meet up with Julien, we went to eat the cheaper Japanese food, forget the shop name. After finishing, we went Ang Mo Kio hub walk around then around 8 went back home as there got nothing to shop around.

Boring day

2008-08-30T12:54:00.002+08:00

27 August, 2008

Today is ladies night, went phuture with Julien and Yi Hui. I don’t know how come I have club back like before, perhaps is Singapore really diminutive till nothing to do. Anyway Yi Hui and I saw a cute guy; he is a cute guy indeed. Today ladies night is so horde till no space to dance, or maybe is I no mood to dance. Anyway nothing much to update, so let the picture do the talking.

Yi Hui and Julien

Me and Yi Hui

29 August, 2008

Today after work went to Benjamin’s house to play MJ with Qian Ling, Benjamin and Zheng Yih. Think at the beginning I zha hu then lose $1.60 to each of them. Anyway we only play 10 cents as we do not have so much money. However, in the end I still win $4.40, then Benjamin said I zha hu still can win $4.40. If I never zha hu, then I can win $9.20, so careless of me.

Outing

2008-08-27T16:21:00.003+08:00

Yesterday went out with Yi Hui, Shu Ling and Julien for dinner at Mos Burger. Long time never meet up with Shu Ling so kindly miss her. Girl miss you so much, must meet up more. Around 8pm, Shu Ling went off, and then we continue shopping. Then I went to M.A.C to buy cosmetics and it cost me a bomb. Perhaps I am stupid; always spend so much on facial and cosmetics. Think back again, my face is the features that I have confident but I am trying to get rid of the dark circle and my face will be totally perfect. Thus maybe I really don’t mind spend money on my face. Now I really have a lot of M.A.C products at home, my friend even ask me am I helping M.A.C to advertise. I don’t help them to advertise as I just in love with their products.

Anyway I bought this blushes for $35.

I bought this cleanse off oil remover for $46.

I bought this strobe cream which is a make-up base for $56. Actually this strobe cream got the luminous effect.

After shopping and the time still early, so we decided to find a place to slack. However weekday really doesn’t have a place to slack. Then suddenly Yi Hui and Julien feel like singing, then Yi Hui recommend a place at Parklane there. So we took a lot of not worthwhile path to reach the place, and the worse thing is the place never open on weekday. After that we find a place at The Cathay there to slack awhile then home sweet home.

Love you girls so much, meet up more. Yes babe, I have really think through, he don’t deserve me at all. Now I have really forgotten this stupid guy and I lead back my happy life like before. =)

Last day of weeping over him

2008-08-25T01:37:00.003+08:00

I really miss him a lot now but what can I do. I can’t do anything now and not even anymore as he has already has a new girlfriend.
“So Huixin now wake up and face the reality and move on your beautiful life like before. I know you can do it as you are capable of overcome any obstacles that have block your life. You might be look fragile at time as human will have their downs point too, but if you are manage to overcome it, you will excel in your life again. Therefore, you got to be an independent girl like other people has always seen. Promise me that today will be the last day that you cry over him and let the sweet memories 030408 stay in your heart and not in your mind again.”
There is a song that says out the moment of my sensation currently. The song is 爱海滔滔 which is sing by 陈浩民. So listen to the song, and turn off my blog song which is located at the gifts section. So kindly navigate to the letter l at the side and turn off my blog song. After that, enjoy the song爱海滔滔.

The lyrics:

试着去努力
鼓起勇气放弃你
总是不争气
没有这么快学会安静
就连眼泪时刻在提醒
根本无法放得下你
漆黑的夜晚
还是找到了我
排山倒海来袭

一定是我不够好
所以你才想要逃
逃到天涯和海角
躲在别人的怀抱
你能不能不管过得好不好
不要故意躲开不让我知道
只要你过得很好
什么都已不重要
我不会故意打扰更不会让你烦恼
我每一夜不管你知不知道
傻傻流着眼泪默默的祈祷
希望你过得好

总有一天你会看到
爱和海掀起惊天巨涛
我会以无坚不摧地力量让你知道

Ai Hai Tao Tao - Chen Hao Ming

Guys please don't intrude into my life, you are not the one I want to be friend with, I just want to be friend with TIME.

Lost to time and my sensation...

2008-08-20T00:38:00.001+08:00

Yesterday slept at 4am and I woke up at 9.30am but fall asleep till 11am. After I woke up, I do all the necessary stuff then sit on sofa watch show till 12.30pm. After that I sit in front of my laptop, then start to play Viwawa MJ till 7pm. Life is really meaningless, I have degenerate and I really need a lot of time to stand up again. I am not waiting for people to sympathy me; I just need to vent my anger or else I will really mentally and physical breakdown. I can’t do anything to alleviate my soreness inside my heart, so I can only inscribe out my sentiment. I know everyone think that I am silly for doing all these but if I can control then I am a human devoid of any sensation. How I wish IF there is a remembrance wash machine, everyone do not have to gulp down their soreness inside their heart anymore. Human always simply say out the word “IF”, they ever think what the actual meaning of the word “IF”.

“IF” - Informal writing if is the standard in their use to introduce a clause indicating uncertainty after a verb such as ask, doubt, know, learn, or see.

So now everyone knows the actual meaning of “IF”, next time don’t always simply say out the word. However saying the word “IF” is human usual practice. We can’t simply change this habit away. I love to use the word “IF” frequently too, so I don’t have the seniority to ask other to change away the habit.

There are many soreness inside my heart and I don’t think it can easily been relieve out. Does anyone feel the soreness inside my heart? I barely utter everything out to everyone as whenever I say about it, I am absolutely breakdown to the ground of the earth. It is just like many thorns inside my heart, whenever I tell myself to stand up, I got to pull out one thorn. When the thorn is been pulled out, there will always a hole and eventually it will leave an unfathomable scar and it will stay with you forever. No people can understand how many holes will there be and the unfathomable scar will stay with me forever. No matter how I swaddle the scar, it will still been seen by others when times come as it is a evident unfathomable scar.

There are too many “HOW I WISH IF” that I wish to happen again but now it has simply turn into reminiscence.

How I wish if he can hold my hand tight when crossing the road.

How I wish if he can hold my waist tight when I am going to fall in the train.

How I wish if he can hug me tight when I am sleeping.

How I wish if he can feed me whenever I am just lazy to eat.

How I wish if he is always there for me when I am sad.

How I wish if he can cook for me and I feel bless.

How I wish if I can see his face closely and feel his face in the morning.

How I wish if I can see his innocent and cute face.

How I wish if I can stay with him for every moment.

How I wish if I can talk to him whenever I want.

There are still more “HOW I WISH IF” but it is impossible to list out everything. Eventually all these can’t be happen in my life again and it has slowly inverted into a remembrance in my heart and mind. And all these can only happen in my dream and it is really a sweet dream which I don’t wish to wake up forever. However nowadays I can’t sleep well due to my sickness and I also can’t get to sleep. Even medicine got no effect on me. Although I am a independent girl and I look strong, I am totally breakdown this time round. I have lost to the time and my sensation.

Boring~~

2008-08-17T15:13:00.003+08:00

I am so jaded. There isn’t any amusement and no one is free due to tomorrow people got to work and some having exam so got to study. Last time used to have a lot of fun during weekends when I am not working part time as I always got his accompany but now it is gone far away from me. The picture has become more blur and blur; ultimately it has become a silhouette to me now. Think when times come, the picture will fade into ashes and being taken away by wind. How I wish the picture is not getting more blur as it will always remain a remembrance in my heart and mind. There is no people can understand how the feeling right depth in my heart, there always have thorns all over the whole heart. I know I must be strong but it just can't control. There are many thoughts and pressures being kept in my heart for a long period. How I wish I can say it out but it is just so complex to say it out.

You will always be the person I love the most in my life. I know everyone will think I am stupid and silly. They will think that I am not that ugly and there are many suitors out there for me and why I choose to close my heart.

However I neither stupid nor silly, as from all the suitors I have, I ever tell them the three words "I LOVE YOU". I only will tell the person I really love and he is the person that makes me crazy over him. I know I will met a pleasant guy and even love me deeper than this one but I just want to say no matter what he will always be the person I love the most in my life and now it will be a remembrance in my heart forever.

Ever since the incident happened, I am not as happy as before, ultimately I become quieter and introvert.

Just some thought

2008-08-16T15:07:00.004+08:00

香烟爱上火柴就注定被伤害。不要轻易说爱，许下的承诺是欠下的债。老鼠对猫说我爱你，猫说你走开，谁也没看见老鼠走后猫也流了一滴泪。其实有一种爱情叫作放弃。风筝一辈子只会为一根线冒险。女人善变的是脸，男人善变的是心。在爱情的世界里，没有谁对不起谁，只有谁不懂得珍惜谁。遇到了真爱就不要轻易说离开。要记得抓紧爱情，而不是抓伤彼此的感情。不要忘了真爱难寻。

Shopping Day

2008-08-16T13:23:00.008+08:00

14 August 2008, Thursday

Today is the last day of my attachment, quite missed the company as I have worked there for 4 months. I have growth deep memories with the company so left the company quite late. I left the company around 6pm while I normally knock off work at 5pm. After I left the company, I went Toa Payoh the Kelly salon to cut my hair. This is my New Hair Style:

A new hair cut need an hour plus to cut, I cut my hair at 7.30pm and it end at 8.45. After my haircut, I went to meet Julien and Yihui at orchard. After we met up, we went Long John Silver to eat. We also took photo but the photos are with Yihui, will update the photo again. After that chill outside the Carl’s Junior at the Far East Plaza there one till 11 plus. Then home sweet home.

15 August 2008, Friday

Today went back school for Internship post briefing at 2pm. After the briefing, I meet up with my LO to submit my Logbook. After everything is done, I went out with Hidayah, Daphne and Mong Hong to town again for shopping. We reach town around 4 plus as Hidayah and me are so hungry, so we went to eat Long John Silver as she craving for it. I eating Long John Silver again, but is alright. After that we went shopping at Far East Plaza. I have spent a lot of money, I spent around $220 but one awhile is still alright as must pampered yourselves once awhile.

At first i went to Missy Gin to bought a dress and a bag as i quite familiar with Gina so she gave me discount and Hidayah bought a bag also, then she got 10% discount too.

Total cost me $76.40.

After that i went shopping then went past a shoe shop call covet and i saw a very nice shoe then i just went in and try the shoes. And it is really nice so i just bought it.

This shoes cost me $39.30.

The heels is around 4 inches.

After that i went OSMOSA to bought a nice Fanon black and it cost me $27 as i have discount card.

After that, Hidayah craving for ice-cream, so we went C K TANG there to bought ice-cream. Then we sat at the bench outside C K TANG one. After finishing our ice-cream, we went to French Connection as i got to buy a T-Shirt i promised him i will buy for him one.

This only cost me $49.

Then after that, Hidayah and Mong Hong went home first. So left me and Daphne, then we went Heeren walk for awhile, then went in a accessories shop to buy this:

This only cost me $9.90.

Then we went Cineleisure walk awhile. You know i saw who?? I saw ELISHA, i don't know he can recognise me ma as when he walked past me, he head down. But who care about him. Then shop awhile nothing to buy then we went home.

Actually want to go Benjamin's house play MJ one but Zheng Yih suddenly cannot make it so never go play. Stay at home rest.

Life

2008-08-14T01:48:00.006+08:00

12 August 2008, Tuesday

Yesterday is a freaking atrocious day for me. Do you want to know why? Actually I meeting siew kae and her mummy at Ang Mo Kio Hub to watch MONEY NOT ENOUGH 2 as I finish work at 5pm and I should arrive at there by 6.15 or more. However due to my freaking atrocious contact lens, I got to go home first as I forget to bring the casing out and my eyes is darned itchy till the lens drop off by itself. At that moment, I was very aggravated by the contact lens, so I just went home to take my spectacle. Think most probably is the lens too dry already but never mind as I have changed a new pair of lens. After that I meet Julien and we went down together and we missed the first 5 minutes of the shows.

Jack Neo, one of the very few whom I'd admired for courage and works. His work pieces had never failed to leave a huge impact on me.

Even though this movie's rating was way beyond expectation, it's extremely argumentative. We must indeed give him applauses for his courage and works. Indeed a touching movie, I have shed a tear.

None of them can judge your LIFE, you are the merely one can judge your LIFE. Although there are many emblematic Singaporeans perhaps including myself, I wouldn’t let my parents to reside at the Old Folk Home. If I got the money, I would rather hire a maid instead sending them to old folk home. I know that everyone is selfish and I don’t deny that I am selfish at time too. However in your whole life, you will barely and only one parents. Nobody can ever get replace their place in your heart.

In life, we always take thing for granted as we thought they are our parents so they should do their parts as parents. However people please think back, they don’t owe you anything, they have taken care of you since the day you are born. They also taught you how to walk, talk and eat. Now when they are old and sick, we as the children should take care of them and not pushing the blame and responsibility to one another.

If I got the money, I will definitely bring my parents to overseas for holiday and I will earned a lot of money to let them live in ease. As they have been working for half of their life to support us, so when I grow up, it will be my turn to repay them.

People out there, if you still take your parents for granted, shut up your mouth and go introspection.

Anyway I am not trying to scold anyone out there, but we got to spare a thought for our parents. =)

With love. God bless you =)

Preliminary my blog again

2008-08-11T03:34:00.004+08:00

Don't know why suddenly i will touch my blog again. So today stay at home edit my blog skin. Deep inside of my heart, I still feel heartache whenever i think back I broke up with my ex-boyfriend. But when i think back how we get to know each other, i start to smile. I know no matter what i do, he won't be back again as everything is too late now. So i decided to move on my life, no point staying at the same spot when you know nothing can be done anymore. So Hui Xin stand up again before you really fall depth into it. Although i feel heartache, i know i can stand up again like before. I know there are many people out there worried about me and they try to console me. Hope that I am feeling better as it already three weeks. Still now i still will cry whenever i think back how i broke up with him but i know i still got other people out there for me like my friends and my precious gfs Julien and yihui. Love you always. Whenever I need someones, they are always there for me. Thanks a lot my gfs. I know yi hui you are busy with your work so i won't blame you as i can feel that you are there for me. Thanks my gfs. Both of you are really my close friends especially Julien as we know each other for 10 years. I promise you all i will stand u and move on my life. Ok now the time is already 3.50 and it's late already. Going to sleep as tomorrow i got to wake up at 7 to go work. Good nights and sleep well. Take care my friends.

Blog collecting "dust"

2008-05-03T19:26:00.006+08:00

I think my blog is collecting “dust” as I didn’t update since February. I was so lazy to update my blog but now I think it is time to update it as quite a lot of people asked me to update my blog. So I just update to please my reader yippee =)). Be in love with my readers so much that I got to get rid of my laziness to update my blog regularly. Hope so I will update it every time. Ok get to the point now.

Now I am having my school attachment at Nokia Company which is located at Alexandra Point. I feel like a routine that got to do it every single day except weekends. That is everyday I got to wake up at 6.30am to prepare as I always need an hour to prepare before going out. So I will leave house around 7.30am. Then I got to take train to Queenstown MRT station to change bus 51 to my work place. So I will reach my workplace around 9am but mostly my supervisor will come around 9.30am. So I can slack awhile till 10am then start my work. I am feeling very stress in the workplace as they got high expectation of me and horng ling. We got to meet their expectation of us as the previous batch of students has done a good job. But I know I can do it as I got high determination. Now I am still on the path of learning Ruby on Rails. It is a new computer language to me as I only learn Java and VB in school. But it is alright to learn new thing. Hope that I can get at least a B+ for my attachment.

He is my cute baby

By the way I my dear reader, I didn’t have a time to tell you all that I am been attached. Yea I am attached to my cute baby HarryQ on 03 April 2008. Hope that he is really my right guy and I really hope to be with him forever. Love him to bits very single day. Dear I love you so much. Today is our first month anniversary but he got to celebrate his owner’s birthday. His owner is Esther. Wish you a happy Birthday Esther. Later I will be meeting my gfs: Yihui and Julien but I will be meeting my dear for awhile as he said he got thing to tell me. Ok I go prepare to go out. See you guys around.

Stay tuned for the update on my Taiwan trip with Julien on 18 March to 25 March. Miss my gfs and my dear. Muacks!!

Outing with Cousin

2008-02-28T04:48:00.008+08:00

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

I woke up slightly late and the time is around 1pm in the afternoon. After i wake up i text my cousin whether what time are we meeting. My cousin say meet around 4pm, so i see still got time then i msn awhile before go prepare. Actually i won't late one but i miss my bus so i reached town around 4.20pm. After meeting with my cousins, we went Mos Burger to eat because i haven eat my lunch yet. In Mos burger, we talked a lot of nonsense and funny thing. Both of my cousins said I really look like her mummy when she is young. So they said if we three plus their mummy go out together, people will believe I am my aunt the daughter. But there is a sentence say that most niece look more like their aunt than their parents. Haha after that we went to Wastons in Ngee Ann City as my cousin want to buy facial products. And i also bought one item from Wastons. After that we head to Far East Plaza to shop around. Then i bought a new red color shoes from Image turn. After We shop around as they want to find bag and clothes but in the end they can't find the desire one. Shop and shop and shop till very tired le. So we decided to go back home.

Here Come our cousins' photo:

Here come myself:

The Shade nice ma?

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Today get back result..Basically i pass all modules and the grade is unexpected one... =D

Rotting at home

2008-02-18T17:14:00.004+08:00

I am so bored and nth to do, so i decided to update my blog since i haven't update for so long le. Haha today is a boring day for me as I am at home rotting le..going to grow mushroom haha.. Actually my friend ask me to go watch movie with them but all guys so i decided not to go cuz i'm a shy girl..nvm i shall watch it with my poly friends instead..hope that they haven watch the movie title jumper.. heard that it is a nice show so must watch it..

Yesterday chatted with my friend in msn..He asked me have i forget about the guy and i answer when I'm drunk i will think about him sometime but when i'm awake his name and whatever nvr even flash thru my mind..so conclusion he has already slowly faded in my mind. Thus i think i will totally forget this guy in few more months later bah...

Let change a topic...Haha i am craving to go Taiwan with julien.. we may be going either March or April..lucky my parents got the money to let me go Taiwan if not i will be crying here le..cuz i want to go Taiwan buy a lot of things...haha hope that i can go Taiwan smoothly without any obstacle..

Anyway i shall stop here and i will update soon..

Waiting for holiday

2008-01-29T22:58:00.002+08:00

I can't wait for tmr paper to come.. u know why?? cuz after tmr i will be free and i can play all night le..haha can't wait to meet my gf joyce...miss her so much..long time nvr see her le and also miss clubbing with her too...but at least got club with her last week..i also miss clubbing with yi hui and wu juan..miss them too..hehe think i go study my ITEC liao if nt i will die tmr...haha update soon..

Hibernating mood!!!

2008-01-28T00:04:00.000+08:00

I am going to die for these two papers...who can tell me what to do..i study and study still cannot memorize everything into the brain leh...i want to sleep but cannot as i still have to study..or shld i wake up tmr morning then continue to study..haha think wait till 1am then go sleep le...study some more before sleeping if not also cannot get to sleep peacefully one..haha think i will stop there le..will update more often..

Sleeping beauty!!!

Study time!!!

2008-01-26T23:22:00.002+08:00

I hate exam period, always have to study and study till study..i now already holiday mood, no mood to study anymore..who can tell me what to do???so sian everyday stay home study...i want to go shopping with my gfs and watch my drama...i don't want to study le but cannot..if i don't study i will fail and repeat...which i don't wish to one...so no choice have to study..after wed i can relax and do whatever thing i like le...haha

My other two papers exam schedule

28 Jan(Mon): ISNS paper; Time: 2pm-4.10pm; Venue: T2156; Seat No: 222

30 Jan(Wed): ITEC paper; Time: 2pm-4.10pm; Venue: T1831/4; Seat No: 37

Reborn of my blog!!!

2008-01-23T23:37:00.002+08:00

haha long time nvr update my blog liao...i think got two mths plus le...i was quite busy with my assignment so nvr update...actual fact is that i lazy to update my blog...haha i got a surprise thing to tell u...

I met the guy that i mention in my prev post one in MOS leh last sat leh....surprisingly he missed call me to catch my attention lor...still come and talk to me lor...all my friends scare i will cry or upset about him again...tell u the last time..i don't miss HIM anymore and forever won't happen again..=))) maybe that time i will hesitate whether i still think of him but now he seems like a stranger to me lor...haha think whoever met this guy will confirm gg one..so next time must open eyes big big worx..haha

ok don't talk about it liao...Mon i just have my ADBMS exam..the paper actually quite easy but i got a bit confused what is the answer..haha hopefully can pass the paper bah...next mon is ISNS paper rmb is 2pm, next Wed is ITEC paper rmb is also 2pm...haha wish that holiday come faster..haha

Surgical blade knife pressing against my heart!!

2007-11-08T21:02:00.000+08:00

I think I will flunk tomorrow paper as I really no mood to study. I really don’t know what happen to me. I’m thinking of you very moment and I just can’t control myself to stop thinking of you. God, can you tell me what to do about it. I’m really in the end of my wits. I really hate this life I’m leading currently. But I really don’t know what to do. Every time I see you, I just can’t control myself of focusing on you. When you ignore me and you know how I felt? You definitely don’t know how I felt as you ever want to focus on me like before. I understand that you don’t wish to get attach currently but can you don’t ignore me. I never ever ask anything in return, I just want you to treat me like before. Can you do it? Since the day I met you, I already know you have mess up with my life. No matter how bad are you, I just like you. So you don’t have to waste your time to tell me how bad are you as I just can’t bear to listen you say any bad thing about yourselves.

Yesterday I was tipsy or maybe drunk as I drank quite a lot. Yesterday when I just reached plush and I saw you but you never talk to me. That why I went out of the plush with my friend to drink. I still can ask another of my guy friend to treat me drink. After that, we went back to plush; I drank one full cup of pure vodka without any mixture. At that moment, I really very tipsy and I can’t walk properly. And when I really need you by my side, you are not here for me. In the end, my friend left me with her friend and she went dancing with my other friend. I sat there lonely and feeling high. At that moment, I really need you yet you are dancing in the dance floor. Then who are the ones that take care of me? That is your friend. He is the one took me to ladies to vomit. He never went into the ladies but waited outside for me. At times I feel a surgical blade knife pressing against my heart, running it deep down. The pain is unbearable. You still can asked me how come I drank till so drunk. I drank a lot to make myself drunk is because of you as I can’t bear to see the way you are treating me yesterday night. Your friend asked me I drank a lot is it because of you. I don’t deny it. it is really because of you, that why I drank a lot and hoping you will take care of me but you didn’t. I don’t blame you but at least you should show concern toward me right? You know that I like you very much and you also like me but you just showing don’t care at all.

Today I just can’t concentrate on my studies and I confirm will flunk tomorrow paper. What to do? I have no idea either. My brain just can’t function properly as I only keep thinking about you.

No matter what happen, I’m always your guardian angel and nobody else. I am willing to sacrifice anything for you as I really like you very much. I really miss you a lot. Hope you will contact me like before. I MISS YOU (******)! I am here waiting for you!! =’(((

香水有毒

2007-11-06T21:15:00.000+08:00

My friend has recommended one old Chinese song to me. And I listen to the song quite few times and started to love the song. The song lyric is quite meaningful. The song name is香水有毒 and it is sing by胡杨林. I think she is a china lady who sing the song. The song is really nice.

And the lyric go like this:

我曾经爱过这样一个男人
他说我是世上最美的女人
我为他保留着那一份天真
关上爱别人的门
也是这个被我深爱的男人
把我变成世上最笨的女人
他说的每句话我都会当真
他说最爱我的唇
我的要求并不高
待我像从前一样好
可是有一天你说了同样的话
把别人拥入怀抱
你身上有她的香水味
是我鼻子犯的罪
不该嗅到她的美
檫掉一切陪你睡
你身上有她的香水味;
是你赐给的自卑
你要的爱太完美
我永远都学不会

也是这个被我深爱的男人
把我变成世上最笨的女人
他说的每句话我都会当真
他说最爱我的唇
我的要求并不高
待我像从前一样好
可是有一天你说了同样的话
把别人拥入怀抱
你身上有她的香水味
是我鼻子犯的罪
不该嗅到她的美
檫掉一切陪你睡
你身上有她的香水味;
是你赐给的自卑
你要的爱太完美
我永远都学不会
你身上有她的香水味
是我鼻子犯的罪
不该嗅到她的美
檫掉一切陪你睡
你身上有她的香水味;
是你赐给的自卑
你要的爱太完美
我永远都学不会
我永远都学不会

My Test day

2007-11-06T20:54:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone, I’m here to blog again. I’m so tired as I slept at 4.30 this morning and woke up at around 8.30am today. I know u all will be wondering how come I slept so late as I was reading thru my itec lecture notes and it damn a lot. But lucky I manage to finish almost everything. After I woke up, as usual I bath and eat. After that I sat down to revise again and around 10am I went to school. During the test, I was so stunned with the question as I have study all these but I just can’t rmb anything. Thus I agar agar do whatever I know but overall still alright. Then after my test, I went for lunch at fc4 with my friends. I ate sambal chicken and it is so spicy yet it is very nice. After our lunch, it still has around one hr to go for our next practical test. So we decided to go Moberly and slack. Haha the sofa is so comfortable and we don’t feel like getting up to go for our next test. In the end, we still get up and go. Haha my practical test is suck. It is so differ from practical exercise and mock test. But still manage to do some part of the practical. After practical test, we went home. Anyway yesterday the adbms paper is more difficult than today paper. I think this semester I really have to put in more effort. Haha cannot play too much liao.

Outing with gf

2007-11-03T19:13:00.000+08:00

It is going to one month that I never update my blog. Haha got people complained that I long time never update my blog liao. So today I’m so sick and tired of studying my ADBMS test and I decided to update my blog instead of idling there. Haha!! Actually I am lazy to update my blog lar not I don’t want to blog. Lazy people like me willing to sleep more than sitting in front of the desktop to update my blog. Muhaha!!

Anyway ytd went out with my girl friends; shuling, shangping and liping. Have a great fun with u all. Hope to go out more often. Anyway we have a lot of laughter and fun. Maybe is because of my lame action bah. Haha!! I never take any photo with my gf. Sob sob =(( but nvm we will go out more often. Then we can take pic non-stop =)).

Today one whole day I have been studying and studying like one crazy girl lor. Haha and I’m too tired liao. I shall continue at night and now idling ard my hse. Haha!!

Monday: ADBMS written paper

Tuesday: ITEC written paper and MPRG practical

Friday: ISNS written paper

I HATE TEST, ASSIGNMENT AND EXAM….Really sick of it!!! Damn it!!!

I shall end here cuz nth much to blog also. I will update soon.

Idling

2007-10-04T22:44:00.002+08:00

I have not blog since long time ago. If I not wrong it is last month I just update my blog. That seems very long ago. Haha I don’t always update my blog as I am quite lazy. Anyway today I seem like quite free and I m idling around so decided to update my blog.

School have started for around one week plus and I always late for lesson. I feel so tired and sleepy when I having lesson but I feel so energetic after lesson. Haha I think it happened to a lot of people. Anyway I am so happy that I can see my friends. I feel content that I have know them.

It is irk to have a same lecturer for this semester. Who is she?? My adbms lecturer Soh Seon Eng. When she starts to teach, I always feel so sleepy. This semester the modules are very dry. Hate it man!!

Last wed went club with my sec sch friends; Liping, Yihui, Shangping and Julien. We have a lot of fun as we seldom talk last time in school. Actually julien know them thru me. Haha it is good to widen your circle of friend. Maybe next time we shall club together again. Wait awhile then talk about it. Nothing to talk about liao. Maybe next time I will update again. Good night & sweet dream.

Ladies Night

2007-09-14T01:05:00.003+08:00

12 September is the day I am born. I went to eat to café cartel at Bishan with Julien, Siew Kae and Joven. Actually want to eat fish and co one but we seem not really like the foods so we went off to Bishan. I really appreciate them accompany me for dinner. Although some of my friends cannot make it, they got something on. So I don’t blame them. Then after that Julien and I went to meet peishi at the Bishan mrt station. After that we head to Tiong Bahru to meet liping and shangping to go zouk. After reaching Tiong Bahru, we took bus 16 to zouk area. We get in first if not later very packed. After we got out entry stamp and we deposit our belonging, we went off to velvet dragon to drink first. And we planning which bus to take and suddenly my friend got a sms from her friend said took bus 51. Then we saw the bus but we missed the bus. After that bus went off, we waited for quite long. We waited around 20 minutes for the next bus to come. After reaching velvet dragon, we got our free drinks as it is ladies night on Wednesday. We got free four drinks each. And a friend merely drinks two cups of alcohol drink and she was high liao but I still quite sober. Then I went 4 alcoholic drinks, a cup of beer and 5 cups of non-alcoholic drink. The 5 cups of non-alcoholic drink is a treat from other; four drinks from bartender call Alvin and a drink from Leon. But I shared my drink with my friends as the do not contain alcohol so I let my friend drink to get sober a bit. Although I am dizzy, I still can walk properly and know what I am doing. We really have fun in velvet dragon. The bartender said he will continue to treat me drink when I go velvet dragon. Haha I got free drink liao. Then after velvet, we went back to zouk to continue our dancing till 4 plus. after our zouking, we went to 7 eleven to eat cup noodle. Then we waited for first train and went back home to sleep. That is the end of the story.

Sunday outing

2007-09-14T00:40:00.003+08:00

Hi I am here to blog again since the last blog is 26 August haha. The last blog is quite long ago. So now I’m here to blog. Anyway nothing special to blog as now we are having holiday. But never mind.

Last Sunday, I went to shop at Bugis with siew kae. Actually we meeting at 1.30 but in the end we are late. So in the end our meeting time become 2pm haha. After we meet each other, we went to Burger King to eat as I haven’t had my lunch yet. After having my lunch is around 3 plus. And we went to Bugis Street to shop around. After one round of shopping, I went to a certain shop to buy a jumper cost at $28 and that’s quite cheap. After that we went to level 2 to buy my bag at the same old place that I had bought one of a bag. I bought a new school bag cost at $28 also and I also bought a bag charm cost at $10. Actually want to buy wallet from that shop one but they do not have stock. So I left my contact with them. After that I continue to shop and went to silver.com to buy accessories. I bought a pair of ear ring and a special necklace and the total cost me $45 only. As I always went there to buy accessories. Then after siewkae bought julien present then we went to bugis junction to shop awhile. We went to watsons to buy my facial foam. I bought a facial foam and Face lifting cream from Bio-essence that cost me $55.15. Then after that we went to eat our dinner at nearby the coffee shop. Then after our dinner we went home. That is the end of Sunday outing. Take care! Continue my birthday thing on next blog

Rox!!

2007-08-26T00:12:00.002+08:00

Haha I finally got time to update my blog since 15 August. Hmmm I finally have finished my exam and I am totally free to do whatever I want to do haha. My examination papers got easy and difficult one. Perhaps I have never prepared well enough bah especially mcot. I really have study the entire topic but when I entered the room, my brain is blank one. At that moment, I really don’t know what to do. However, there are still question I know how to do. Hmmm don’t know can pass this module ma? Yes or No!! Never mind it was already over and I am enjoying my holiday to the fullest!! Ya I remember that I have bought a 57 bucks make-up removal but it can used up to 6 months long. I also bought a facial mask; 10 bucks, eyes mask; 18 bucks but can use three times and Clearis exfo gel; 12.90 bucks. Clearis exfo gel is to purify and clarify the skin one.

Thursday when I wake up I do my wlpg assignment and I have some error and pya sone helps me to solve the error le. Thanks pya sone.

After that I went to meet xiao hui at 4.30pm and we went to novena square the monsoon to cut my hair. The price is quite reasonable as I have my hairstyle at that hair studio and it is only 30 bucks. Moreover their service is damn good. I have never got this good service before at any salon before. So definitely I will go back again. And my hairstylist is Sophia; she is small in size but pretty and has a sweet looking.

After that we went to Bugis to shop and I bought a black skinny at 30 bucks and a small jacket at 18 bucks. About 7.30, we went to meet xiao hui classmate weihao to have our dinner. We went to the coffee shop opposite bugis junction to eat. After our dinner we went to Tanjong Pagar to meet xiao hui friend to take the SMRT form and then went home.

Friday afternoon I meet julien and actually want to go buy wax one but in the end I never buy as I can’t find the suitable wax I want. So after that we head to ang mo kio to meet peishi to eat lunch. Around 4.45pm I went off first to work but peishi and julien stay at amk to study. During my work time, I was so suay lor. The paper jams in the machine and after that I like forget to return the punter correct money. It is really very suay but never mind as it was already over! After my work I went to amk mac to meet ps and julien they all to go home together.

Today I never go out and I stay at home to do nothing just sleep, eat and watch television. Actually want to meet my friend to watch movie one but I decide not to go liao. Then actually also want to meet siew kae to go Bugis shop but she seems busy so in the end we never meet. I think I stop here. When I am free, I will update my blog again. Ok I go watch my 女人我最大le. Good night and have sweet dream.

Busy Day

2007-08-15T00:06:00.002+08:00

Haha I just realised that I have so long never blog le. It’s about one week ago I write my blog. Haha I have been so busy these lately so never get a time to update my blog. However today I am quite free to update my blog. Thus I decided to update my blog to please the reader. Nowadays I have been busy study for my upcoming exams. Whenever it is exam period, I will feel nervous and stress as I don’t wish to forward any module. I just wish to have a simple polytechnic life and pass my exam and just graduate. Forward module is so troublesome, as I can’t graduate in just three years, I still have to retain for half semester. So I have to work harder to pass my exam. This coming Friday is my dsal paper, hope that the paper doesn’t be too difficult.

Countdown to my exam period, it is just 2 more days from today onwards. This semester fly damn fast, things happened just like one month ago. Haha I still have to face the reality, exam period have drawn nearer every minute. Never mind, I just have to endure 7 more days and I am free. After that I can do whatever I want for like one month. Haha I can get more sleep and go shopping with my friends. I really miss shopping with Shuling and Yingting. We are always very busy and can’t fork out a time to go shopping together. We have been agreeing to go shopping from last year till now, yet we still haven’t met up. I don’t care, this semester the holiday I must ask them out for shopping. Miss them so much.

I will just call a day for today and will update my blog after this Friday. The time now is 12am. I think I go play my crazy taxis before going back to my study. I have to learn to unwind myself with game, if not I will go crazy of studying. Ok end here!! Take care and good night. Hope everyone has a sweet dream and tomorrow will be a good day.

Peaceful Sunday!!!

2007-08-06T03:20:00.002+08:00

Today I woke up at 10.30am but actually I want to wake up at 8 plus to do my report. I am just too lazy to wake up early to do. After woke up, I have my breakfast, bathed then went to work as usual like Saturday. This weekend just ended with the company of my work. Haha I am doing three reports now and it is to be submitted by either today or tomorrow. Later in the evening time I got IHRP test and I haven’t really study for it. I think later in the morning have to wake up early to read through the notes. Haha this semester really fly damn fast. It is going to be exam period and everyone will be worry and study hard for their exam. After exam, everyone will unwind and engage in recreation again. That is really very good and I love it. I am very worry for this semester the exam as I not really well-prepared for the exam but I still have to take the exam. I have no choice, just have to put in more effort to study more and strike for it haha. Hopefully that will really work and pass my exam.

After Monday the IHRP test then Tuesday is my PFP test and Friday will be JSPG test. So many tests are coming along and follow by exam haha.

06 August: IHRP test (Still ok I think can pass)

07 August: PFP test (don’t know what I have learnt)

10 August: JSPG Practical test (very scare and worry)

17 August: DSAL paper (scare forget what I have learnt in class as no book is allowed)

20 August: SDT paper (still not bad just have to study for the behind chapter well enough)

21 August: WLPG paper (still alright)

22 August: MCOT paper (which I have totally no confidence)

Haha after 22 August, I will be free and you guys can ask me out for shopping, movie, club and etc. I am waiting the day to come and I can really unwind myself from the study as I am suffocated with lots of assignments, reports, tests and exam. Hate it man!! But it is worth it as it will be going nearer to my aspiration and I wish to go university to study. I think I have to start doing my reports again if not I think by tomorrow morning I also cannot finish it hehe. I will update my blog again when I am free. Cheer up =)

Happy day

2007-08-01T01:16:00.002+08:00

Haha today finally can update my blog liao. Mong hong stop saying I never update my blog. I never update my blog got reason one. I already not enough of sleep liao, so where got time update leh.

Today I’m quite free so can update my blog. Today I never go to school as I was too tired and sick. I just can’t separate my body from the bed. I do assignment till 5am then sleep. Today I went to see doctor and I met a very humorous doctor. He asked how can I never go to school for my assignment interview. He looked more worried than me, asked me whether I will get zero for the interview. But I said got MC will be alright liao. Then he still asked whether I need MC for tomorrow. It’s really very funny. So today I met a good doctor. Anyway I not purposely don’t want to go school one. Is my body aching and eyes are too pain to open liao. After seeing a doctor, I went to but my lunch and I met a very cute little boy. You know what ma?? You will be surprise!! The cute little boy asks for my number and his brother said he is crazy. I walked past them, and the boy asked 姐姐可以给我你的电话号码吗? I look at the little boy and just walked away. But he is a cute little boy indeed. Haha feel like laughing at that moment. It is so funny.

Anyway the time now is 1.15am, I have to go sleep le. If not tomorrow cannot wake up liao. and my lesson start at 9.30am and I cannot late.hehe!!

ASSIGNMENT AND STILL ASSIGNMENT

2007-07-31T04:36:00.000+08:00

The time now is 4.30am and I still haven’t sleep yet as I have just finish my assignment. I was so angry with JBuilder program. My JBuilder has suddenly corrupted and corrupt my codes. So I have to re-do the code all again which take me a lot of time to do. Lucky got some people around to let me ask for help. I am really appreciating you all the help. Thanks you!!! Glad that I know you all as my friends.

Every moment is ASSIGNMENT!! Hate it lorz…haha

ASSIGNMENT, ASSIGNMENT, ASSIGNMENT and still ASSIGNMENT!!!

HATE IT MAN!!

I think I will end there!! My lesson tomorrow starts at 8am. I have to go sleep if not I cannot wake up in the morning. Bye!!

Strenuous and Shattered day!!!

2007-07-26T00:21:00.000+08:00

Now the time is 12.20 and yet I still haven’t sleep. Everyday is just doing assignment and still assignment. Every night before I went to sleep is doing assignment then after I wake up I still doing the assignment. There is no ending to the assignment, so sad (>.<)!!! Almost everyone is sick and tire of doing assignments. Hope that the day will pass very soon.

I’m so tired but I can’t go to sleep as I have to at least finish something before I went to sleep tonight. Actually I plan to sleep now then wake up early in the morning to continue with my assignment. However, I know I will sleep till the time to wake up then prepare to go school. Thus, I can’t sleep now. That’s a sad thing but I think I really cannot take it le. I want to sleep and sleep and still sleep. Sometime I still can dream of programming codes while I’m sleeping which make me can’t get a good rest. Hate it man. Haha how I wish that when I wake up tomorrow, my group mates can produce the things I wanted. But I know that’s a dream bah haha. Ok I going to continue with my assignment again.

Sleepy mode

2007-07-23T23:44:00.000+08:00

The time now is 12:40AM and I still haven’t sleep yet. The worst thing is that tomorrow my lesson start at 8:00AM. Anyway after blogging I will be going to my sleeping mode le haha. Today my friend helps out with my programming assignment, thanks friends. I am glad that I have known them as friends. I really appreciate it a lot hehe.

Today I ate quite a lot of things like my lunch, then after few hours later I ate a donut, spring rolls and nuggets. I like to eat a lot so next time you all going to eat feast must call me along leh but have to see I got money ma. Today I came home around 8:00PM as I was doing assignment in school. After that I do my thing as usual like watching television, eat, bath and etc. then now I chatting in msn with my friends but going to sleep liao if not tomorrow cannot wake up then I really die le. As I have warning letter for my GEMs. I’m so sad but never mind. I will try my best to wake up early and go school early hehe.

Ok I will end here and go sleep le. Good night my friends!!! Sleep well worx. Bye-bye!

Boring Day!!!

2007-07-23T15:31:00.001+08:00

Hello dudes, today is my first time to blog. First time to blog is very troublesome as I do not really know what to do to the template. Haha a bit stupid in IT stuff but I still got mong hong and her friend who help out with my blog. Thanks you all and loves you all. I really appreciate it. Hehe I really don’t know what to write in my blog.

Today I came to school to do nothing as I do not have any lesson from 10am to 2pm. Haha I skip my dsal just for the sake to ask my friends for help in my assignment. What if I go for the dsal lesson but I can’t produce any output for my assignment and it is just wasting of time. Thus might else I ask my friend for help. Now I at food court 6 waiting my friend to end his lesson at 4.30pm hehe. Really nothing to do so decided to start my first blog now. I feel so tired and bored as today I woke up at 7am yet I came to school to do nothing haha. I still have to wait around 45 minutes then my friend end his lesson. Hope that the time will fly fast. Lastly hope later I can really do something to my assignment. I hate assignment so much especially programming assignment as I do not really like IT stuff. Hate it man but what can I do, just endure it bah. Haha hope that holiday will come faster and I can rest and go out shopping with my friends. Miss them so much. To all my girlfriends, I love you all a lot. Muackz!!! (>.<). During holiday really have to make one day go out with you all. By the way, I want to go clubbing but no money; so sad. Faster get my pay then can go club le hehe. I end my first blog here. If I’m free tonight then will blog again. See you all!!!

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*香水有毒*

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Outing with gf

Idling

Ladies Night

Sunday outing

Rox!!

Busy Day

Peaceful Sunday!!!

Happy day

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Strenuous and Shattered day!!!

Sleepy mode

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香水有毒